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The Process, The Promise :: 31 Days of Infertility Prayers

Sep 30, 2013 11 Comments ~ Written by lisha epperson

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31 Days of Infertility Prayers ????

A few weeks ago The Lord gave me a vision to write a series of infertility prayers. I share them on Twitter and Facebook and have prayed about compiling them in a real talk devotional. I’m not a minister or preacher. I am a woman and lover of God. I am a daughter, sister, friend, aunt, wife, stepmother, godmother….mother. I’m an encourager. I lived infertility. I explored her complexities, engaged in heated debates and heart to hearts. I stood toe to toe with her in the ring of fire called birth. We have history.

This month I stepped into a leadership position with the (in)courage community group THRIVE. It’s rekindled my passion for the hearts of women facing the faith-shattering battle of infertility. The women inspire me. Although I’ve done my time in the trenches I feel compelled to stand with them at the front line. I’ll write, whisper and shout words of encouragement. I will pray.

During the month of October I’ll “write the vision and make it plain” as I join The Nester for 31 days of journaling, processing, and praying. I started my blog with this topic and have since, explored other areas that touch my heart as a modern Christian woman. Honestly, I struggle sometimes with whether or not I can sustain a blog about infertility. It’s a specific topic with a small pool of viewers. But I know you’re out there. I saw you. I see you. My heart holds a place for you and for you, I write. I scribble notes of hope on tear-stained walls.  Inscribe His message of love on the palm of your hand. Because you have to know.  You’ve got to know. You.  Are. Loved. You have not been forgotten.

This is the first post in the series The Process, The Promise :: 31 Days of Infertility Prayers. It is inspired by and written as encouragement for women facing infertility – but the essence of these reflections can be applied to other areas of life. They are universal truths. Use them. Share them. I’ll add a new post  everyday.

If you are blessed by these posts you can have them sent to you directly.  Just sign up for my email list in the top right corner of this page.

I hope you’ll join me for a little straight talk about infertility. See you tomorrow.

Day 1 :: The Process, The Promise : 31 Days of Infertility Prayers

Day 2 :: How to Process the Lie of Why 

Day 3 :: Why You Have To Move Forward

Day 4 :: When It’s You 

Day 5 :: Secret Thoughts About Male Factor Infertility

Day 6 :: The Process :: Anger

Day 7 :: Day Off :: Beautifully Made 

Day 8 :: Will Your Marriage Survive?

Day 9 :: Why You Should Let Them In {Friends and Family}

Day 10 :: Faith. Science. Fertility :: The Remix

Day 11 :: How to Embrace the Ordinary {while waiting}

Day 12 :: Why You Should Feel Free to Grieve

Day 13 :: Day Off :: Beautifully Made

Day 14 :: My Best Friend’s Pregnancy

Day 15 :: When You Have to Choose : I.V.F (I Vow Fertility)

Day 16 :: Can You Forgive Betrayal? Making Peace With Your Body

Day 17 :: Do You Have a Plan? How Will You Slay the Dragon?

Day 18 :: I’m Losing My Faith, Now What? 

Day 19 :: The Infertile Stepmother 

Day 20 :: Day Off :: Beautifully Made {Love}

Day 21 :: Why You Should Watch Your Words 

Day 22 :: For the Day You Curse God

Day 23 :: The Shift 

Day 24 :: Are You Ready for Motherhood? {adoption}

Day 25 :: What to Expect When You’re Expecting After Infertility

Day 26 :: When You Find Yourself Still {living child-free}

Day 27 :: When You Face the End of Your Fertility Journey

Day 28 :: Day Off :: A Beautifully Made Transition

Day 29 :: When You Think Infertility is Forever :: Tell Your Story

Day 30 :: How to Thrive :: Living with Infertility

Day 31 ::  Warrior Song 

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The Sunday Community : On a Mission

Sep 28, 2013 13 Comments ~ Written by lisha epperson
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Från att solen stiger upp
Tills den går ner
Ska vi prisa Herrens namn

From the rising of the sun
To the going down of the same
The name of The Lord is to be praised

My only missionary experience is quite different from the ones I read about on social media. I shared recently my concern over the constantly looped narrative of need our society tells about people of color. I shared also how I wonder if it’s easier to go in for a fixed amount of time and exit rather than engaging in the truly challenging work of the everyday missionary. We’re all called to do it, I might add. Engage in community with our brothers and sisters, to offer resources, meet needs, care for…love.

Yes! We’re all called to the field. In one form or another, as Christians we’re all on a mission.

I travelled to Sweden as part of a missionary team in 2000 and again in 2001. I was part of a very small ministry of amazingly gifted former artists. Dancers, actors, models and singers, this group grew out of a bible study that took place in the theatre district of New York City. In the early fall of 2000 we were sent to Sundsval Sweden to minister to churches in the area. What were we doing there? These people knew Jesus. They had given their hearts and lives to God. There was no obvious area of lack in their lives. So why had God called us?

I was excited to be asked to go but struggled with just why we were going. The church I attended was primarily black and we were headed to Sweden. This was different. Numbed by “facts” born of repetition, somewhere, deep inside, I believed the narrative too. How could “we” help “them”?

Attending the first church service revealed the answer. In these beautiful churches …with the word, a pastor and people….the spirit was dry. Well ventilated sanctuaries were stale, the atmosphere stagnant. All life having been choked out of the service by old traditions and beliefs. The people…long silenced by a veil of feigned decency and order…didn’t move. Parched and dry they needed a drink and we… were sent to water.

I learned God sends the willing. He knows the needs and will send the provision. His ways and thoughts are high and above mine. They transcend the story I’d heard and replaced the usual suspects. He allowed me to see beyond the typical picture of need and take part in an act of His divine grace – with me as a missionary. I love that He did that.

Because many of our needs go unseen and because we often have a hard time recognizing and expressing them, the body of Christ easily suffers misdiagnosis. The gorgeous church with the magnificent choir may be sorely lacking in love. The small storefront my be operating under a spirit of pride. And in Sweden there was a need for revival. The expansion of our perception of need is mandatory. All humanity has a need for a very real God who can be trusted to show up to provide healing, salvation and deliverance …whatever that may look like. He uses the willing servant as His hands and heart on earth. We all have a job to do. We are all on a mission.

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We helped release a spirit of freedom in Sweden. By the time we left, congregants were doing the “Electric Slide” in the aisles. Some were clapping to new songs they’d learned and others, realized it was perfectly appropriate to smile in service. They learned to enjoy the fullness of the worship experience.

I’ve wondered since, what service must be like for them now. It was an incredible two weeks and the intensity of the moment made it feel like the change was immediate and forever. But I wonder?? It’s been 12 years…I’m sure time has mellowed their worship and I imagine they’ve put a personal stamp on it that makes it work for them . But I do believe they worship differently. God was glorified and our job was done. Mission accomplished.

And I think of this 1 Corinthians 3:6-9
I planted, Apollos watered, but God gave the increase. 7 So then neither he who plants is anything, nor he who waters, but God who gives the increase. 8 Now he who plants and he who waters are one, and each one will receive his own reward according to his own labor.

Some plant, some water, but God brings the increase. Amen.

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Who Are You and What is Your Truth?

Sep 27, 2013 18 Comments ~ Written by lisha epperson
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Who are you? What is your truth? I’ve dabbled with this question the past few days. Thoughts of streamlining my blog and achieving clarity on my about page dancing in my head. I want to write truth. My truth.

My story began almost 50 years ago. I was born the middle child of a Baptist rebel and a misguided Muslim. Raised in the discipline and beauty of ballet, physically I’ve always felt free. I danced..so there was no need…for words. When I finally felt ready to speak, my words were held captive in a super long chapter called infertility. I emerged from that dark place compelled to reach back and help others. I know they’re out there…still…and my heart says – serve. But beyond that who am I ?

My blogging journey started with infertility, but in the writing, an authentication process began. The more I write, the more I share…the more I am reawakened to myself. My truth is being revealed. And too, my truth has been transformed.

How I feel about family and relationships, my children, homeschooling, my faith , my body and yes race.  I never thought I’d share, so publicly, my thoughts on race. Like most people I know, I see the elephant  in the room, but I walk around or crawl under. I don’t “go there”. Well lately, I’ve climbed on and taken her for a ride.

I thought I’d have to compartmentalize myself to do this blogging thing successfully. Thought there was no way I could speak to women from such varied angles. I’d have to choose.  But I couldn’t.  Why would I think I’d be the only one? While we know God loves creativity, He also created us for community. So my tribe is just like me, they won’t choose either. We are renaissance angels, daughters of a king, fair maidens of His Majesty. There really are no limits for us.  The probloggers say find your voice and in searching for it, I found a warrior song, a haunting melody bursting forth in sweet notes of hope. My tribe and I, we dance.

I’ve found every step I take, you’re there with me. Every day someone, even one, somewhere responds to report they’ve heard my cry. You’ve seen the trail of tears or the whispers of smoke lingering from the flames of a fire I set. You’ve heard the gentle hum of His lullaby -( I only know it because He taught it to me.) I sing it for you. I sing it with you.

So I’m going where I’ve never been before and I’m excited about the adventure because I’m free…to be…me.  And I’m so happy to have met you.

This has been my truth.

This post was inspired by Chelle at Treat Me to A Feast. We follow each other on Facebook and Twitter and have encouraged each other online for a few months now. The other day, we talked on the phone for the first time. I know it won’t be the last.

another Five Minute Friday post with Lisa Jo Baker and friends.

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The Sunday Community : Miracles

Sep 21, 2013 25 Comments ~ Written by lisha epperson
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Luke 19:28-44

Right at the crest, where Mount Olives begins its descent, the whole crowd of disciples burst into enthusiastic praise over all the mighty works they had witnessed: Blessed is he who comes, the king in God’s name! All’s well in heaven! Glory in the high places! (Luke 19:37, 38 MSG)

His works were undeniable. Irrefutable occurrences that demanded His reverence. Jesus was like that. He went around showing himself big because people , humans , sometimes need to experience a miracle.

Miracles quiet the ramblings of a rational mind and silence our tendency towards cynicism. They nullify attempts at explanation. His indescribable love and grace work together for good in our lives and we, forever changed, become believers. Any good salesman knows the value of word of mouth…the testimony of a satisfied customer. The crowd that day was full of these people. These converts. They had witnessed His mighty works…His miracles. Today, especially today we need to reflect on the miracles that make us believers.

I’m living a miracle. The Lord uses my family very publicly to display his goodness. I can’t explain the favor He’s granted us. You can read about that here.

Has God miraculously moved in your life? Where you knew – barring any facts, or opinions to the contrary – something special had taken place? God performed a miracle and you couldn’t help but burst into enthusiastic praise? I know He has but, tell me about it. I’d love to rejoice with you. I want to hear about your miracle.

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(In)courage Community Group Registration Continues….

Sep 16, 2013 3 Comments ~ Written by lisha epperson
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registration continues this week!

Hello Fair Maidens!

I prayed God would use me to encourage women faced with infertility. I prayed our paths would cross and we’d join to scream His goodness in the face of barrenness. I’ve been praying and believing – for you.

I would describe myself as an infertility warrior. I wrestled with God head on for the first 5 of my 14 yearlong journey. When I met the first of 3 children that would be mine through adoption, I accepted the fact that whatever He was working out – it was for good. I always knew this, but then, holding that sweet baby boy in my arms – I believed it. I began to thrive.

I am grateful to walk this road with you. I pray we expose our hurts and share the difficulties of this path with no shame. I want to shine truth all over infertility. I want to believe with you and for you, when you’re tired and – just can’t. I hope you feel this, a safe space to bare your soul, cry and laugh a little – because we all need to laugh.

Lets purpose to set our hearts to hope – to not only survive but thrive in this season. He does have a plan for your life, you are the apple of His eye and the target of all His affections. Let’s look ahead with great expectation for all the good to come.

Registration continues this week for the fall session of the (in)courage community groups. I am honored to serve as a leader along with Resealia McKinney in the THRIVE (in)fertility group.

THRIVE (in)fertility (in)hope (in)Him

With this as a motto were taking it to the next level. We’re all about declaring “it is well” to one of the biggest challenges to faith a woman can experience. We know it isn’t an easy road but its one we can navigate. Together. Join us here.

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The Sunday Community :Worship in the Storefront Church

Sep 15, 2013 13 Comments ~ Written by lisha epperson
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worship at a storefront church – The Lovelies/ March 2013

Have you ever been to a storefront church?

You might remember them or be familiar with the term

They line city streets, former hubs of business – reborn…houses of God.
There is absolutely nothing like worship in a storefront church
I heard a song this week that took me back and I remember the voices
The music , the feeling and emotions of those first holy experiences are tangled and I can’t separate them
There were no sound systems, no screens
Very few instruments, maybe a tambourine
A whole lot of hand clapping
Nothing fancy
Just voices
A relationship with Jesus is so much more than a song but He embodies the gift of music and for me…worship begins here.

 

 

Tasha Cobbs has a storefront church voice
Voices like hers are part of my childhood…….
Memory…

The air is thick, like over stuffed clouds just before a storm
Jasmine scented cologne tickles your nose and mingles with perspiration
Something’s about to break free
You hear the shifting of toddlers trying their best to behave and mamas…hushing
The hum of an electric fan and the hushed paper flutter of programs, keeping the congregation cool
It’s hot.

They make their way past the folding chairs to the front of the room
Just in front of the pulpit
A few steps away from and to the right of the Pastor and First Lady

“They fixin’ ta sang”

And one steps forward

Her coffee-colored skin and heart-shaped face are framed with a halo of softly pressed hair
Her small frame, covered in a delicate lace blouse and modest blue gaberdine skirt
She’s pretty but her face reveals subtle things about her past

She’s been through a few things…even going through a few now
But she won’t complain
because she’s on her post and this….is how she serves
Her voice is a gift from God and she’s learned to share

“She fixin’ ta sang”

The tears in her eyes tell you she’s willing herself to sing
She’s pushing past her feelings to find the heart of God
Her worship is healing and she gets as much as she gives
Worship requires faith and for her, sometimes it’s hard…to believe

But her voice, riding the wave of a melody
Becomes song
And ministers its sweet simple truth to your soul
And you begin to sing along
Crying and believing too

This…is Sunday morning worship in the storefront church

When you said ” Come worship me,” I answered, “I will come, Lord.” Psalm 27:6-8 (GNT)

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What Does Mercy Look Like?

Sep 13, 2013 15 Comments ~ Written by lisha epperson
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The Mercy House Beauties

I can’t take my eyes away from the faces in this picture…every girl feels so familiar. I could walk a mile radius around my apartment building in NYC and find a dozen young mothers that look just like them. A watered down version of the beauties pictured, they are the daughters of women who crossed the Atlantic long ago. So many lives and stories colliding in a pool of personal tragedy that would make many question if mercy exists. These girls struggle and are too young to know the hurts they’ve experienced.

I see my teen-aged self. I see my daughters. Genetics and culture will always have their say and …the shape of their eyes. And noses. And the kankelon box braids and twists. Yes the box braids tell me I know these young women. I am a part of this story. Even if I’ve never been to Africa, even if, in my culturally privileged life, I’ve known nothing of true poverty.

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2012 – rocking a braided bun

At 17 I went to bed every night, after attending school all day, after sitting down to a warm meal, after seeing and feeling the love in my mothers eyes. My biggest problem then was where I could take ballet classes on scholarship and how to sneak out of the house wearing my sisters fabulous “new whatever”. First world problems we joke…in an effort to put into perspective the reality of their insignificance. When paired with poverty, rape, disease and war…my “problems” are barely worth repeating.

I’ve seen images of poverty. They are not uncommon. The subtle continuous narrative that portrays people of color in need is all too familiar. I’ve resisted the impact they can have on the self-esteem of children persistently mirrored a negative image of themselves. I’m tired of seeing it (it’s hard to see yourself that way) and have kept my distance because I know there is so much more to the soul of Africa.

But Mercy House was different.

I visited the Mercy House website and read about the work being done. And how two women came together to make a difference in the lives of even one young woman dealing with an unplanned pregnancy – usually the result of rape and abuse. The images were different. I saw dignity, strength of character in their smiles and demeanor. I saw their beauty as reflected in the eyes of the community that cares for them. I saw bright eyes and shea-buttered skin. These girls had neatly braided hair. Someone cared enough about them to make sure these women felt beautiful. These pictures took the narrative to another level and I could receive their message of mercy.

It’s easy to be spoiled in America. We have the very human ability to live in our safe surroundings…”us four, shut the door, no room for more”…my pastor used to say. We feel entitled to everything. We look down on others and are shamefully judgmental. Looking at life through the lens of another or walking even one step..forget the mile…is enough to silence my greedy and ungrateful heart.

My first impulse is to scream “Why?” I want to climb mountains and tear down bridges… I want to shout this wall of injustice down. Because I know the power of mercy and believe mercy is for all.

I know mercy. She’s walked through every chapter of my story. Surely she’s made connections with more than the hearts of first world girls. Surely mercy is a gift to humanity, the birth right of every child of God. The girls of Mercy House know her goodness.

Africa is complex. The cradle of civilization. The confusion of colonization. The birthplace of the American slave trade. Senseless Civil wars. Africa is complex. We’ll have to tackle the current issues in small chunks. Maybe then, we can work towards change, slowly chip away at corrupt government, poverty, famine, the degradation of women and war. Be the hands of God as we lend ourselves to service.

It’s all about one life. One life is all it takes to impact the next and then the next and the next. At Mercy House the vision is for the fullness of mercy on each individual life. “We want to be their forever family and will tailor our help to each girl’s situation. Our goal is quality, not quantity and total discipleship.” One to many.  Mercy multiplied.

This is the message of hope, the gift of belonging and the promise of restoration. This is mercy. Mercy heals,delivers….mercy sets free.

I’m partnering with Mercy House for the needs of these women. I’m helping to bring awareness to the stories of these beautiful young mothers. Their voices should be heard and because of His grace they will.

You can help. Pray. Give. Shop. Go here. and if you have the time, watch this video clip.

 

 

 

I’m supporting the fund raising efforts of (in)courage and hanging out with my friends at Five Minute Friday!

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For When You Want to Quit: Homeschooling

Sep 11, 2013 9 Comments ~ Written by lisha epperson
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homeschool heaven – one of those “perfect” days

Every year I wonder if we should continue homeschooling. We live in NYC , basically on 1 income, with 4 children. We have never had a nanny or even regular babysitting. I am a full-time parent/educator. Every year? Every month, every day…I wonder if we should continue homeschooling.

I wonder because of my perceived limitations. How much can a former ballerina really teach her children? A product of the school system I’ve chosen to keep my children away from, am I qualified? To be clear, this is my gig. Big Daddy supports the vision (I could not do this without him) , but the workload falls on my shoulders. I wonder if “I” can do it.

Homeschooling has been one of the great surprises of my life and definitely an ongoing challenge.

When I’m feeling like this I go back to the beginning. God pricked my heart for homeschooling when LiChai, now 12, was 9 months old. I read an article and thought “wow”! If this can be done any where, well NYC is the place to do it. Diverse people and places, an overload of cultural explorations…this is where it’s at.

We prayed and dived in. Committing and re-committing each year and feeling secure with the option of an out. It’s worked so far. The day-to-day can be brutal and there are a few weeks each year where I really question our game plan. But overall…with Gods help, we’re making it happen.

The picture I’ve shared is from one of our homeschooling heaven moments. This picture helps me see clearly the beauty and benefits of the crazy road we’ve chosen. Our children are bright, funny, sensitive and creative thinkers who love God. They shine bright for Jesus! Our home life is what I hoped it would be and nothing like what I feared. We are close. We have time for read-alouds and sweet hugs.  We talk about everything. We gently warm up to our mornings and have home economics days. My son bakes and my daughter sews. We sing Broadway show tunes and walk through history together. I’m teaching my 3rd child to read using the same book I used for the previous two. The baby, isn’t such a baby. Having marinated in a literary household , he speaks and thinks beyond his years. They really are a fun bunch.

Sounds cool huh? The hard core homeschoolers know none of it is easy. I don’t paint a picture of homeschool bliss. What I’ve described are the sweet moments, the ones that make the many tough spots worthwhile.

Every day I ask for His grace to cover us on this journey, to fill and refill me with His goodness because I do struggle. I ask Him to fill in the gaps because I can’t do it all. I want, more than anyone, for them to succeed and sometimes take on responsibility for every weakness, every challenge. If they aren’t doing well in a particular area, I think it’s my job to fix it. This is true to a point.  But walking in this, without His word – will lead to failure.

 Isaiah 54:13  – I will teach your children and make them successful.

Being mom and teacher, sometimes, for all of us, and for different reasons, is difficult to balance. The media would have a stay at home mom strive to be the matrix, the super-mom, the only available source…but God has ministered to me that I am not the only one who holds their hearts. He freed my homeschooling journey with this simple revelation. “He will teach them and make them successful.”  I am part of their destiny but it all comes back to Him. He is the source. As a homeschooling parent my job is to equip and guide. Water and care for…God will do the rest. Homeschooling with Him taught me that.

One of the great benefits of homeschooling is family learning. I can’t tell you how much I’ve gleaned on my knees before the king, simply because I’ve chosen to serve my family in this capacity. Will we continue to homeschool? Even though its hard and only gets harder? Should we make the sacrifice? For my family, this year, the answer is yes!

Remember , it’s the day to day grind that discourages. Step back and evaluate your family with an overall snapshot of where you are and what you’re doing. Linger long over a family picture and ask yourself –  Are you getting closer to your goals? even incrementally? What encourages you to keep going on your homeschool journey? Do you have a scripture or homeschooling revelation to share? Leave a comment and let’s encourage each other.

linking with Behind the Scenes, Transformed Tuesdays and Tell His Story… keep up the great words/work Crystal, Elisa and Jennifer.  You continue to inspire.

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When Mercy is Renewed : finding fulfillment in Fall

Sep 10, 2013 7 Comments ~ Written by lisha epperson
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Fall encourages a dependency on mercy

As we reluctantly turn our sun-kissed faces towards cooler temperatures and shorter days I’m wondering how we do it every year. How do we say goodbye to summer? How do we successfully trust our lives to a new season? Trust that the leaves, having fallen, will again return? As we cautiously cozy up to fall I’m searching His word for answers. His word assures fulfillment in fall. He reminds us of His ever-present love and the promise of mercy for every season. Spring . Summer . Winter. Fall. There is mercy in every season.

Gods word instructs us to stay kingdom-focused and not to worry.

Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don’t worry about missing out. You’ll find all your everyday human concerns will be met – Matthew 6:33 The Message

We’ll have to rely on His mercy to live free of worry. Throughout the season we use, give away and share. We lose focus, drive and sometimes hope. Leaves aren’t all that’s lost this season…I believe we spiritually shed. We experience a spiritual cleansing in preparation for the next cycle. It is a natural progression, an expression of the beauty found in change.

Fall encourages a dependence on mercy. We trust in its renewal to confidently leave behind the safety and provision of summer. To walk in faith towards a season marked in the physical by loss, we need mercy. Mercy gives us strength to endure in the face of change.

We shouldn’t be afraid of change. But we are.

When I experienced infertility the beginning of fall always reminded me of how close I was to the new year…another year without a baby. I’d dread seeing the baby bumps of friends I hadn’t connected with all summer. The dry and falling leaves hinting at my barrenness and the impending chill of winter confirming it. I couldn’t embrace change. I felt disconnected because it seemed I, alone, stayed the same.

Fall is beautiful but the seasonal picture depicting a bountiful harvest only mocks a woman who does without in some area of her life. There is a definite disconnect between the barren woman and a harvest of plenty. Truth is, we see this seasonal change as a slow walk to an impending doom…a certain death. The leaves falling, dying. The bare trees, frigidity and fragility of ice…cold and hard. This season is hard. We connect to the dying. Each monthly cycle marking a death…to the life we hoped to carry.

A shift in my perspective was in order. I had to stop worrying. I had to trust that my life was operating in divine order – because I’d given it to Him. I purposed in my heart to live and enjoy my life – whether or not I ever gave birth to a baby.  I chose to thrive in every season. It didn’t happen over night.  But I got there and getting there brought me blessings I continue to marvel at. Getting there led me on a unique journey to motherhood.

We all have some area of challenge. Some area of longing and a real need for His mercy to transition from season to season. You may be waiting for marriage, a baby, a home, a job, a long-held dream…physical healing. God says you shouldn’t worry.

So trust Him and “go there” in your faith. His word promises renewal.

God ’s loyal love couldn’t have run out, His merciful love couldn’t have dried up. They’re created new every morning. How great your faithfulness! I’m sticking with God (I say it over and over). He’s all I’ve got left. (Lamentations 3:22-24 MSG)

His mercy is always available…the renewing comes in our faith to receive it. Daily.

Let’s view this season as a passageway to all things new. The falling leaves, a prelude to the promise. Fall promises the constancy of change in the beautiful renewal of the life cycle. Under the frost of winter lies the bud. Preparing to burst forth. Something new is coming. Our faith assures the fulfillment of the promise from the only One who can provide. Let’s embrace the newness of the season and the good things He will accomplish through us. Lord grace us to experience the springing forth of new mercies.

A declaration:

Like the olive tree, I am evergreen. I am faithful in all seasons. I am secure in His provision for me. I live for and praise Him forever. I am productive under all seasons and circumstances. I am patient because I trust the process. I am under perpetual renewal and graced by a God who cares for me. – based on Psalm 52:8-9

Let us be ever-green. His word, His mercy, in us – ever new.

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Will We Be the Ones Who Run Back? on magnifying God in motherhood

Sep 08, 2013 26 Comments ~ Written by lisha epperson
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Run Back…Give Thanks
photo: Katie K (Flickr Creative Commons)

 

 

Sometimes I forget to run back…

Instead,

I trample on the glory of all He’s given

Mumble words of ingratitude at this messy magnificence

Skate, on thin ice separating the joyful few from, dissatisfied many

Motherhood is hard but I need to watch my step, pay attention to my footing

Because I want to dance…

I want to flow in the goodness of His provision

Spin. Leap. Fast and High…well into and way past September

With feeling and purpose, through every season

Because this…all of it…is a gift

And what He’s so mercifully bestowed

I want Him to know me as one who rushed back -

to say thank you

Even through the toys and Pull-ups, scrambled eggs and sticky floors

the arguments and day-to-day delirium…

I want to run back

Stop where I am and in this moment, every moment

on my face and at His feet

Give… and live thanks

and one of them, when he saw that he was cleansed , returned, magnifying God with a loud voice – Luke 17:15

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